
Artist: Jong Min Lee – https://www.artstation.com/jongminlee
“This is clearly my next evolution. I am a troll, I belong on the interwebs…”
“No. Please. Just put the phone down.”
“But the screaming goats…”
“No.”
Artist: Jong Min Lee – https://www.artstation.com/jongminlee
“This is clearly my next evolution. I am a troll, I belong on the interwebs…”
“No. Please. Just put the phone down.”
“But the screaming goats…”
“No.”
One of my favorite authors once said, “I don’t have a muse, I have a mortgage”.
I struggle with this constantly. I really am a mood based writer. It’s terrible because there are times when something springs forth from my forehead as if a Greek god headache has produced something whole and complete. There are other times when I simply can not force myself to sit at the keys and work.
I think that’s a significant part of this. It IS work. There is time and effort and a willingness to give up a piece of yourself to the consumption of others. It is draining to me. I’ve heard of others that are energized by the completion of some piece of their art but when I am finished working on something like this I am spent. Pouring out some of myself onto a page is a challenge, but I really do love to tell a good story.
I’ve got a story that’s been “in production” for a quite a long time now. No, not the 2 novels that I’ve been so called writing for a decade now. A story. I know there’s a seed of a good idea in this story, but it’s just not working.
Today I think I caught a little of the right mood. I listened to a scary story. I know – sounds childish to say it that way, but that’s what it really is. It’s a scary story. There are a large number of other scary stories where I found this one. The particular scary story I found happened to be ‘Take a Walk In The Night, My Love‘. It’s from the podcast Pseudopod as presented by Escape Artists ~ folks who deliver some genuinely excellent content all the time. I mean consistently over years. Go, support them.
I’ve never been good at telling a scary story. I’ve got an excellent handle on the ridiculous. That’s easy, I just have human interaction, mess it up the way I normally do and then write that down. Easy. Scaring somebody? Scaring somebody is a far more challenging concept ~ at least to me.
So here, on a bright, sunny summer afternoon I sit behind the keys and attempt to tell a scary story. I’ll let you know if it turns out to be as scary as I hope.
The desire to soar like an angel was overwhelming. Driven to madness by continual failure to achieve the glory of divine flight extreme measures were needed. The faithful would see. The faithful would understand.
I shall soar in the light. I will bask in glory.
Love the purity of my being.
The tipping point.
All the struggles, all the sacrifice to get here. Her past was as ruined as the temple where she stood facing the oracle. Now, in that moment she hesitated. There was no going back once the question was asked.
Could she go forward?
There was a time when sleep was a refuge, a safe haven. Go there. Hide there. Rest there to come and battle us again. No more.
We have found you.
We are coming.
“Why
my lady?”
“Because
we must.”
“No
harm shall befall you. Let us go.”
Programming note: Writing is still hard.
I’ve seen a ton of posts about all the time that some people have on their hands these days. I’ve seen posts, some joking, some serious about how much some people accomplished in the past when under quarantine rules. I’ve seen numerous posts about how one should feel about all this time, your personal level of anxiety and how much work you should get done.
A friend of mine posted an update on how much had been written during this time of not leaving the house… and questioned its value.
Writing is still hard.
Extra time at the keyboard doesn’t change that. Some people might not even get extra time at the keyboard. Some people might not be able to take it. I am extremely lucky to still be working. I am on the same hours / schedule I was before the modern plague hit the world. I still can’t sit here in front of the machine for 12 or more hours at a time. I reserve a great deal of time for work here on my computer – the day job kind.
That is not to say that other projects are still lagging. Quite the contrary actually. I’ve been chipping away at things little by little. The biggest boon to me is the reduction in travel times along with the reduction in number of meetings. There are no places I have to go, no drive time involved in going there. Very few people clamoring for my attention. that has made a certain amount of focus easier for me, so I’m getting more writing done than I have in a while.
That is not to say that it’s good writing. There is a lot of anxiety floating out there and as I have stated in other posts, the panic can and will rub off. I’m hoping that as we adjust to the way things are right now that the new schedule will allow for even more work to get done.
In the end – writing is still hard. IF you’re creative and you’re struggling – that’s OK. If you’ve got scads of free time and you can make a go of it – then you go! Get cracking and make something awesome. If you’re not a maker, be a consumer when you can. Authors, freelancers, small businesses are all going to undergo changes in the coming months. IF you’ve got the time, dig up a new author or a small press and see if you can find something you like.
Hopefully I’ll be able to pull my bits and pieces together and keep forging ahead.
Continuing the flash prompt series.
She ached.
She hurt because she knew.
She would do it anyway.
Sometimes I need a little push to get going. Writing is not an easy, flowing thing all the time. A friend of mine has a secret group on Failbook called “Flash Prompt”.
One picture, each day with no discussion – just writing. Hit the “like” button all you want, but don’t comment on other people’s work. It’s meant to get writing stuff moving for people – give some little bit of inspiration. It’s meant to be “flash sized” so short and to the point.
I’ve done a couple of things on there and I thought I might share some with you. I don’t do every one. Some of the pictures don’t inspire me, sometimes I miss a day or twelve and the mood doesn’t move me. It’s hard to tell. The curator is super good about providing a link to the artist who created the picture – and I will try to do the same. Artists need to get paid.
This is the first one I participated in.
On sunny days it was great fun to climb on the rocks near my aunt’s house exploring tide pools and finding shells. She loved it there. I loved it there. The breeze off the water, the sound of the surf.
When the storms came the could be endured. The rage was part of the beauty. The danger part of the allure.
When the storm sent sea water down the chimney she decided that endurance had limits and even the best relationships can turn sour. She moved far enough inland that the sea could not reach her.
I miss the rocky coast.
Part 05
After struggling to wade out to the fallen deer, Gramp secured the rope around Buck’s body and began to pull his way to solid ground.
“Nice deer, Willard,” said a voice.
“That it is Ben,” said Gramp, stopping halfway between the deer and the shore.
“Nice deer your Gramp has, boy,” said Ben Morrison.
“It’s his,” said Willard looking at Ron.
“Old Buck. Fancy that,” was Ben’s response.
“Got it hisself,” Gramp said.
“That so, boy?” Morrison asked turning to Ron.
Speechless, Ron could only return an awkward gawk.
“Well, he aint claimed so, Willard! So if it ain’t his and it ain’t yours, then by God it must be mine. Ain’t that right boy?”
“Morrison, we don’t want no truck with you,” Gramp said.
“You got truck with me, Willard! Me and my brother,” said Morrison, raising his own shotgun to shoulder level.
“You’ve got to give a man half a break,” pleaded the old hunter.
“You’ve had yours,” said Ben, aiming at Gramp, “and you won’t get no second chance neither.”
Gramp Willard heard the explosion and saw the flesh leap off Morrison’s chest: the blood and bone exposed. Morrison’s right arm was lying fourteen feet away from his body. The lower right half of his face was missing; the bloody tongue flopping out between the remaining exposed teeth. Gramp saw Ron, who still had two fingers on both triggers lying on his back.
“Ron! Ron!” yelled Gramp, struggling to pull himself up the bank. “Ron,” said the grandfather, kneeling beside the boy.
“Is he… is he dead?” the youth whimpered.
“He is.” said Willard, holding Ron’s head.
“I… I killed him, Gramp. I killed him. I killed him…”
“You did right. It was right,” said the old deer slayer, taking the shotgun from Ron’s hands. “You did right.”
Gramp and Ron pulled Old Buck out from the bog and strung him up. The deer had to be dressed out. First however, the took the remains of Ben Morrison’s body down into the bog. Gramp tied the dismembered arm to the body and weighed them down with semi flat stones. He pushed the body into the mud. Down, under the surface, gone.
***
She handed him a glass of wine. It was red. Hearty Burgundy. He didn’t want to drink it. Wine and beer didn’t mix in his system. He drank.
“It’s good,” he said.
“I like it,” she said. “What
would you like to hear?”
“Anything, he replied.
She put several records on the stereo, walked to the couch and sat beside him.
“You’re a quiet guy.”
“I’m a good listener,” he said.
“Sometimes you have to do more than
listen.”
“I know,” he said.
As she kissed him, she slid her hand along the inside of his thigh. His legs felt numb. He had to piss. He was nauseated. His head was starting to throb.
“Where’s your bathroom?” he asked, breaking away.
“Through there, second door on the left.”
When he returned, he saw her sitting on the couch. She was naked. She was holding her glass of wine. She smiled. He was drunk. He slumped into the space beside her. He wanted it. For sure. Damn wine and beer!
“Well, aren’t you going to do anything?” she demanded.
He didn’t do anything. He didn’t say anything. He saw the bog mud.
***
Ron helped hang Old Buck from a rafter in Gramp’s barn. It was a prize deer. A legendary deer that hung in a dark, dank, empty stall. Gramp, unlike he had planned, never told anyone about the deer. No. The very next day after their return, Gramp butchered Old Buck without so much as a word.
***
Ron sat back in his black leather swivel chair and looked at his books. He thought he could hear them speaking. He thought one of the authors said something about hay bags, but he wasn’t sure. They were all talking at once; it was impossible to understand. He was still drunk. He begged them to be silent. The clamor continued. He took a novel from the shelf. The rest of the works became silent. He loved his books.
End