Stormy

I started my own re-read of all the published works in the Dresden Files series in anticipation of the new book being released this summer. Part of the re-read was also looking at them from a new perspective. I have heard from some people that the works are misogynistic. I have never felt that way about them. In fact, I empathize with the main character more than I do with many other works. It’s part of my attraction to the series. That’s the part that worried me ~ I never want to be that guy.

I read the short story at the start of it all and the comic book that is supposed to land in the timeline before Storm Front, even though Storm Front was the first published.

Time to move on to case book one.

I read the whole thing in a morning. It’s a fast moving book. I had forgotten how short the time frame of the book itself is. It feels longer in my mind just based on how long I’ve been reading the series. The actual timeline in the book is less than a whole week – it’s only a few days total (like Thursday to Monday). I didn’t remember that.

I also didn’t remember just how many of the fantastic lines / quotes from the series came from this first book. Many I remembered and many that I didn’t.

I also came to realize just how much that dismal television show has crept into my mind. I am a visual person by nature and things like television and media tend to stick and stay with me. When I read about Bob the skull, I pictured Terrence Mann. Bob never takes on a form anything like that in the book, but that picture has stayed with me. The picture of Joanne Kelly as Bianca stuck with me as well. The problem is other details stuck too – and they’re flat out wrong. The TV series messed with so much of this work that it has become difficult to pry the two apart.

I’m glad I read the book again. I’m really glad I went back and could recognize the changes in details based on the words, not on my shaky memory.

As to the thought that the book is misogynistic? I have a really hard time calling it that. I think that’s using a club when a scalpel is called for. I try to temper my words and say things as accurately and succinctly as possible. I try to say what I mean. I think that I understand what those people are saying, even if they’re using very charged and inelegant methods to make their point. They would call my attempt to defend it a lot of inelegant things I’m sure. So – to that point:

The book is not written or intended to be hateful or hurtful to women and that is the definition of misogynistic. I do however see that people could view the main character as a sexist and somebody that works within a system that has always favored men. He has good intentions and clearly states that he understands there are women that don’t like it on page 11. Right up front.

“Maybe my values are outdated, but I come from an old school of thought. I think that men ought to treat women like something other than just shorter, weaker men with breasts. Try and convict me if I’m a bad person for thinking so. I enjoy treating a woman like a lady, opening doors for her, paying for shared meals, giving flowers–all that sort of thing. It irritates the hell out of Murphy, who had to fight and claw and play dirty with the hairiest men in Chicago to get as far as she has.”

I’m glad I’m going back through all the stories again. I’m glad I have a fresh perspective on them. I’m going to continue and see if the pattern I missed before shows up now with a new point of view…

Failure and Fan Art

It would be easy to call entry into a contest and not winning a failure. Easy, but not true.

I created the picture below to enter into a fan art competition in celebration of the 20th anniversary of the Dresden Files. I really am a big fan. I have read more of this series than I have of any other book series or author out there. Admittedly, some authors I’ve read don’t have as great an amount of work available. There are some that have comparable amounts of work available, but they have not met the standard set by the Dresden Files for me.

I didn’t share this entry before the contest winners were announced. It was not at all about a “jinx” or any other kind of superstition. It was that mean, nasty thing called ‘hope’. IF you’ve got even a little it makes you think things like, “Gee, I don’t want to put this up on my web site where it will be considered ‘published’ before the winners are announced… what if I win and then they want to do a business deal and can’t…”

Intellectually it was very easy to see that I didn’t have much of a chance. I am an amateur artist on a good day. This contest was open to all comers – and there were a lot of them I suspect.

So – I didn’t win – BUT

What I did get was a chance to make art. I like what I made. I am going to make more art. This was a fun little project and I’m very happy with the results. What do you think?

Bob The Skull

More Context

It’s been a week since I posted “historic context” and I haven’t written a single thing in that time. I am not alone in that. This past week has seen an extraordinary amount of change because of the world wide pandemic that is COVID-19 (commonly called the coronavirus). I simply have not had the wherewithal to just sit down and write. There is a staggering amount of anxiety out there and it has leeched into us here. It is hard to NOT panic when everyone else is in panic mode. The biggest fear is the transmission rate and our lack of ability to stop it. We don’t have any kind of vaccine to counter this and people have been dying by the thousands over the past few weeks. It is true that most of the deaths are not near us here in the middle of PA, but the simple fact that within a stunningly short number of days there are hundreds of people near us that have this virus makes that panic suddenly sound more reasonable. Panic is not a reasonable response, but it is understandable to be deeply shaken by the speed this hit us with and our genuine lack of preparedness.

When this was ramping up I started to make a list of meetings and events that had been called off because of this virus. It seems almost quaint to look at that list from a week ago. What has been canceled? Everything. The Governor of the state issued an order for all non-life sustaining business to close. All of them. There’s a sudden mad scramble to change how people can work and discussions about the nature of that work (and in many cases that people can’t work now and have been laid off or fired in vain attempts to save a business). In a move that was previously declared as “never going to happen” I have started to set up the ability to work from home. This is admittedly a challenge because the very nature of my work is collaborative. We shall see how it all works out only after more time has passed.

If you’re reading this right now, I have no doubt that you know most of what I have just written. It’s not possible to avoid this news. Why am I writing it here? Historic context. I didn’t remember small parts of what happened when America was attacked on 9/11. If I had not written them down in one of my sketchbooks at work I would have forgotten. There are other parts in my book, but I posted the most relevant to what I am trying to get across.

Businesses are closed. The government has moved to bare essential personnel, schools are closed. Stores have row upon row of empty shelves (see panic above). Anxiety rides high. It has become more and more clear how unprepared we are for anything that changes how we charge ahead in our day to day lives unthinking of what can happen. Everyone is aware now. The change is here and you can’t avoid it.

I think Douglas Adams put it best:



Tomorrow I start my first full day of working from home. So does my lovely wife. She and I will be sharing office space now. My daughter will be home from school all this week at a minimum. That might extend even longer, depending on the spread of the virus and how attempts to contain it work out.

Welcome to the new normal.

As things stand right now, I am still filled with anxiety. There are massive numbers of unanswered questions. Plans as far out as May are already canceled and plans for July are being questioned. My daughter is supposed to be traveling to France in August to begin a year of study in that country – and the entire program is in doubt right now for the first time in 70 years. I can’t comprehend the scope of this right now, but I wanted to write this all down so that someday I will be able to look back at this and remember some of the smaller details. I might even print this out – just in case the electronic version is somehow unavailable. There’s that panicky edge again…

Stay safe and healthy.

Historic Context

I’ve been distracted by the real world again. I’d love to spend tons and tons of time here in writer land but sometimes things happen. What I need to learn to be better about is actually writing down the things I’ve got bouncing around in the ol’ noggin.

Right now, here in the United States we have a panic happening about a global pandemic. People are getting sick at an alarming rate – and being terrible to each other at an even more alarming rate.

I’ve got a number of thoughts that I want to put here, but I’m still formulating how to pull it all together. For some frame of reference I tried to think of another event that really changed things across the country in such short order. The one I could think of most recently was the terror attacks of September 11, 2001.

I was at work that day. I remember it quite clearly. I know where I was sitting and could paint you a picture of my surroundings. What isn’t as clear in my memory was the thought process I had going on. I was writing then. I didn’t have things in electronic format. I didn’t have a blog or really even understand what was involved in starting one at that point. What I did have was my sketch book. I always have a sketch book at work. It’s part of the job. I track my hours on projects, but a lot of other things land in there too. I’ve pulled 3 pertinent pages from that old book (it was almost 20 years ago at this point – a bit staggering to consider) and have them here.

That day

I knew a number of people living in NYC at the time and made an effort to reach out to one of my closest friends of the time. I was lucky to get a response, and get it quickly.

What a day indeed

I recall a number of things about price gouging, hoarding and people being terrible – but more than that I remember people reaching out to help each other.

Did terror win?

I am seeing some things about the pandemic that are similar here in the US, but I am also seeing a number of differences. I want to give this all a lot more thought before I try to write up how I feel about it all. I need to put all the thoughts someplace. Having some historic context is going to matter to me at some point in the future.

Three Cross Bog

Part 05

After struggling to wade out to the fallen deer, Gramp secured the rope around Buck’s body and began to pull his way to solid ground.

“Nice deer, Willard,” said a voice.

“That it is Ben,” said Gramp, stopping halfway between the deer and the shore.

“Nice deer your Gramp has, boy,” said Ben Morrison.

“It’s his,” said Willard looking at Ron.

“Old Buck. Fancy that,” was Ben’s response.

“Got it hisself,” Gramp said.

“That so, boy?” Morrison asked turning to Ron.

Speechless, Ron could only return an awkward gawk.

“Well, he aint claimed so, Willard! So if it ain’t his and it ain’t yours, then by God it must be mine. Ain’t that right boy?”

“Morrison, we don’t want no truck with you,” Gramp said.

“You got truck with me, Willard! Me and my brother,” said Morrison, raising his own shotgun to shoulder level.

“You’ve got to give a man half a break,” pleaded the old hunter.

“You’ve had yours,” said Ben, aiming at Gramp, “and you won’t get no second chance neither.”

Gramp Willard heard the explosion and saw the flesh leap off Morrison’s chest: the blood and bone exposed. Morrison’s right arm was lying fourteen feet away from his body. The lower right half of his face was missing; the bloody tongue flopping out between the remaining exposed teeth. Gramp saw Ron, who still had two fingers on both triggers lying on his back.

“Ron! Ron!” yelled Gramp, struggling to pull himself up the bank. “Ron,” said the grandfather, kneeling beside the boy.

“Is he… is he dead?” the youth whimpered.

“He is.” said Willard, holding Ron’s head.

“I… I killed him, Gramp. I killed him. I killed him…”

“You did right. It was right,” said the old deer slayer, taking the shotgun from Ron’s hands. “You did right.”

Gramp and Ron pulled Old Buck out from the bog and strung him up. The deer had to be dressed out. First however, the took the remains of Ben Morrison’s body down into the bog. Gramp tied the dismembered arm to the body and weighed them down with semi flat stones. He pushed the body into the mud. Down, under the surface, gone.

***

She handed him a glass of wine. It was red. Hearty Burgundy. He didn’t want to drink it. Wine and beer didn’t mix in his system. He drank.

“It’s good,” he said.

“I like it,” she said. “What would you like to hear?”

“Anything, he replied.

She put several records on the stereo, walked to the couch and sat beside him.

“You’re a quiet guy.”

“I’m a good listener,” he said.

“Sometimes you have to do more than listen.”

“I know,” he said.

As she kissed him, she slid her hand along the inside of his thigh. His legs felt numb. He had to piss. He was nauseated. His head was starting to throb.

“Where’s your bathroom?” he asked, breaking away.

“Through there, second door on the left.”

When he returned, he saw her sitting on the couch. She was naked. She was holding her glass of wine. She smiled. He was drunk. He slumped into the space beside her. He wanted it. For sure. Damn wine and beer!

“Well, aren’t you going to do anything?” she demanded.

He didn’t do anything. He didn’t say anything. He saw the bog mud.

***

Ron helped hang Old Buck from a rafter in Gramp’s barn. It was a prize deer. A legendary deer that hung in a dark, dank, empty stall. Gramp, unlike he had planned, never told anyone about the deer. No. The very next day after their return, Gramp butchered Old Buck without so much as a word.

***

Ron sat back in his black leather swivel chair and looked at his books. He thought he could hear them speaking. He thought one of the authors said something about hay bags, but he wasn’t sure. They were all talking at once; it was impossible to understand. He was still drunk. He begged them to be silent. The clamor continued. He took a novel from the shelf. The rest of the works became silent. He loved his books.

End

Jungle

I’m glad I went back and read this one again in the spot where it’s supposed to land in the series. It was good to see a case that was less complex than a lot of the things that have been created later in the series.

That being said – this particular case was quite short. If I had to guess, I’d say it was because it was part of a comic series / graphic novel.

I’ve never been a huge fan of comics themselves, but I have always loved the art. This particular story is really well done and I very much enjoy the art that goes with it. There was one thing that stuck out to me ~ and it’s part of the reason I’m going back and doing the re-read.

I’ve heard / read some folks that call Harry (the main character in all this) misogynistic. I don’t see it that way, but I’m a guy so my opinion might be biased. Since I’ve heard this complaint in more than one place I’ve tried to take note of various bits that might highlight that for others. This particular case has one thing that struck me as something a person could point their finger at and say “that ~ that’s what I mean”.

Murphy is there. She’s a strong and independent female character, even if she’s conflicted about how she feels about Harry. The villain of the piece is also a woman. There are in fact as more noteworthy strong female characters in here than there are males.

However.

Then there’s Willamena aka ‘Will’ – the assistant to Dr. Reese. She is 110% the damsel in distress. She does nothing but deliver information and need to be rescued. She cowers behind Harry more than once. I hadn’t particularly noticed it before, but I could totally see where people might find this character problematic. I found her a bit annoying, but genuinely realistic. There are some people out there that just can’t “do” the violence / scary situation thing. They freak out. They cower. They fail. It just so happens that this cowering person in need of rescue is a woman. Except… why is it always that way? I didn’t see it before, now I’m questioning it.

I would suggest digging up a copy of the graphic novel and taking a peek for yourself. I think it could be an interesting conversation. On to Storm Front!

Faith

My own great re-read of the Dresden files has begun. It will be filled with spoilers and story specific information.

I forget now where I heard about the short story Restoration of Faith first, but I seem to recall that the author was less than happy with it at this point. It was an initial offering in a series that has gone on for a very long time. Anyone that practices their craft for that long is bound to get better and will likely look back at their early work and shake their head.

This story is the first appearance of Murphy. There’s very little detail, but I filled all that in based on all the other stories I’ve read. It gives this short story a bit of a different twist really… or not really a twist but an alternate feeling. Feeling is what came through for me in this short piece.

I still contend that if you’ve not started the Dresden Files you should read this. IF a down on his luck want to be private investigator that happens to also be a wizard doesn’t work for you after this short, you can pass. IF you’re into a guy like that, and you get a good feeling about Harry at the end, you will enjoy the ride.

I’m going to continue to recommend this as a starting point for anyone unfamiliar with the series – and I’ll likely be back to read it again.

Suspense and Re-reading

How do you keep somebody in suspense?

I’ll tell you next Tuesday.

Yes, that’s a bit of an old joke, however it can be effective marketing. It can also be a driver for anxiety. I recently entered some art into a contest. The winners of the contest were supposed to be announced last Tuesday.

I waited. I waited. Then I saw the e-mail announcement from that mailing list pop up on my account. With great trepidation I opened the e-mail.

I’m not much of an artist really. I try, but I don’t have any delusions about my talent level. I don’t actually think I’m going to win anything in this contest… intellectually. Emotionally, there’s the teeny spark of hope. Hope can be cruel, so I try to avoid it. Pragmatism. Planning. Realistic options. But I really like this author’s work and it would be so far beyond super cool to be noticed. I’ve shown my contest entry to a few friends and they all seem to think it’s good.

And now you’re waiting for the big reveal… I opened the e-mail and…

Yeah, I felt that way too.

I opened the e-mail and there was a brief statement about how the winners would be announced after an additional week of deliberation. Remember what I said about hope? Yeah, and the anxiety and then the “ARRGH! Another week?!?” because that sliver of hope, like a splinter in my mind will be hanging around until at least Tuesday. I say at least because there’s a deeply cynical part of my mind that has crept out of the dark corner where it lives to say, “Oh, absolutely… THIS Tuesday… for sure…” followed almost immediately by a mangled quote from Wimpy the guy begging for hamburgers in Popeye, “I’ll gladly pay you Tuesday for a hamburger today…”

The really effective part of the marketing / contest strategy is that I’ve been thinking a lot about the series and attempting to remember specific parts. Discussions with other fans have me thinking things like, when he did what again? Some would be fans have written unflattering reviews and taken on points of view that don’t mesh with how I remember things. Turns out that after a decade or so, I’ve forgotten a lot of the details.

I’m going to go back and do a re-read of the entire Dresden files series. I’m actually going to look up where the short stories fit in along the way too. I hope to have this entire re-read finished up before the new book comes out July 14th of this year. It’s a tall order, but I’m up for the challenge.

Once again time to go read A Restoration of Faith, the story that starts the whole thing.

Oh, and the art? I’ll have to tell you on Tuesday.

Three Cross Bog

Part 04

Ron thought he heard a noise. He looked upstream, hearing a snap and a splish. Then he heard a larger more human sound. Something was moving toward him and it was moving quickly. It jumped. It was Old Buck. Ron could barely see Gramp, who was running along the stream, following Buck’s trail. Ron knew this was his time; that he wouldn’t get a second chance. He shouldered his gun, pointing it upstream. He held his breath. Old Buck was sixty yards away. Ron started to lead him. He had two fingers on the two triggers. You don’t get a second chance. He exhaled quickly and drew in another breath. Old Buck jumped again. The deer easily cleared a fallen tree. Ron closed his eyes, holding them tight.

He pulled both triggers of his twelve gauge double barrel Knickerbocker.

After opening his eyes, he picked himself up. The blast had knocked him flat. He reloaded instantly. He ran down the ridge.

“Gut shot him,” yelled Gramp as he grabbed Ron’s arm and pointed to the blood on the ground. They followed the trail of blood up over the ridge. They stood at the edge of the bog. Old Buck was there. He had gotten twenty feet out into it and was caught up to his chest, bearing a large splattered patch of red. They watched as Buck fought the bog.

“Ain’t he something,” said the veteran deerslayer.

Ron watched the deer kick and flounder.

“Lad, give him one more.”

Ron saw Buck throw his head back.

“Be a man. He’s yours.”

“Gramp! Gramp… I…”

“Shoot him! It’s cruel not to!”

“Gramp…”

“Shoot!” Yelled Gramp.

“I can’t,” said the boy.

As Gramp shouldered his single shot, Ron turned away. Ron heard the noise from the blast echo off the far bank of the bog. When he turned back around he saw Old Buck slumped forward. Moitionless.

“Here,” Willard said after removing a coil of rope from his belt. “Tie this end on that oak over there.” The old hunter took off his jacket and started down into the bod Ron saw the old man was already up to his knees in the mire.

***

“Do you come in here often?” he asked.

“No. Do you?”

“Not much anymore,” he said.

“It’s an alright place, I suppose,” She said.

“Not bad,” he added.

Ron refilled his glass and held the pitcher suspended over the table’s center. She replied by sliding her glass toward him. After filling the glass he set down the empty pitcher.

“Beer is publican’t piss,” she said. “Give me a hearty Burgundy. Do you like wine?”

A member in good standing of the Dithryambic Players and Layers Association,” he said.

“What?”

“Yes,” he said quickly. “Sometimes I like a glass of Port after dinner but usually I prefer Chablis.”

“Another pitcher?” asked the waitress who had approached the table.

“Would you like to go somewhere else?” asked the woman.

Ron looked at her. He looked at the waitress. He thought. “I guess we won’t have anymore beer, thank you.” he said to the waitress who snatched up the pitcher.

“Ready?” asked the woman.

“Lead the way,” Ron said. He stood. His legs were a little unsteady but he didn’t stagger.

“Let’s take my car,” she said, walking across the parking lot.

“Okay,” he replied.

“It’s the green Vette over here,” she said.

“Did you have any place in mind?” Ron asked after entering the car.

“Not really? How about R.A.’s?”

“Sounds fine,” he said.

Ron thought he could buy her a few rounds at R.A.’s. Suggest they hop over to the Bum Steer or to where? Anywhere. Sure, talk about books. Anything. He was flexible. Everything was smooth. Right? It’s work. In the car. He’d ask her up to his place. He had it made. What could go wrong?

“Look,” she said, “let’s go over to my apartment. Ive got some wine and I’m tired of crowds. Okay?”

“You’re driving,” he said.

Bankrupt

The Boy Scouts of America have filed for bankruptcy. They have failed to be what they claim and are now paying for that. I’ve written and posted in the past about my personal issues with the BSA program. [Don’t Bring the Fat Kid] They have been headed in the wrong direction for many years. The stances they have taken and the so called protective policies they attempted to use have undermined the very things they claim to stand for.

I was associated with the BSA for a long time. I am an eagle scout. That achievement doesn’t just go away. It’s something I am proud of. The friends I made when I was a scout are still my friends today. The things we did, the places we went, the adventures we had are as irreplaceable as they are priceless.

A program like the BSA is important. It matters. Our children are the future and we need to do whatever is in our power to give them those adventures, those friends, those leaders and role models. The leaders, mentors and role models of the BSA as it stands now have failed entirely. Taking advantage of or abusing a child is as heinous a thing as I can think of. I do not understand it, nor do I forgive it. I am not a person of virtue when it involves people that prey on children.

Hiding records of this abuse is beyond unacceptable. Yes, clearly the easy stance that nobody will argue with. The opposite is an indefensible position. There is a part of me that demands this organization be immediately dismantled, ended, and relegated to history.

BUT

Before something is completely destroyed it is important to try to wrap our heads around the potential impact. There is never really any way to truly know all the results or fall out from an action like this. There are more than 2 million boys that are still participating in this program. The most important question I can come up with is this ~ what fills the void if the BSA just goes away? The millions of boys out there getting something vital and positive from scouting will lose out. Where do they go to fill that void? No matter how convenient the entire organization can not be painted with a single brush. I don’t have good answers for alternatives. I wish I did. I’d go and do that.

Be prepared… how about Be Better?

I don’t believe the BSA will survive this. It won’t be immediate, but they will collapse under the weight of their own hubris and inability to adapt to a changing world. Much like my thoughts on a recent architecture school closure, I derive no joy from this. It saddens me to know that those thousands of boys suffered at the hands of a group that has had such a positive impact on millions of others. It’s desperately sad for me to see all the failings as an adult that I was thankfully and blessedly unaware of as a boy. I was lucky and didn’t face abuse like that. It’s depressing to see a future without a strong and popular organization for giving life to outdoor activities for kids that need it now more than ever.

I’d be interested to hear if anyone has alternatives to a program like the BSA. I hope something fills the void that will be left when the BSA eventually dies. Filling that void matters. Filling that void with a group that doesn’t hide child molesters matters more.